M&M's World...livin' it up!

I really have to be honest with my self, and to others. Lately, my mood honestly fluctuates. Some days, I am very happy, other days, I feel on edge or unhappy about something. I hate it. I wish I had consistency in my life. One would think I would be happy because I have so many good friends here. And honestly, I do! I couldn’t ask for a better group of people. I feel horrible for talking to them about my issues. I mean, being new here to the east side of MI and all, I really have nothing to complain about: good friends, great place, good job, family not too far, and a Tigger to pet. Then what’s wrong? Heck if I knew…

I tend to be a very independent person, however, I think I am realizing I find it better for myself to share my life with others…even if I am very independent. Perhaps sometimes I need to realize I can’t handle everything on my own as much as I try. More importantly, I put everything, my being, and my issues to God.

It’s been a very fluctuating last few weeks. I’m so sorry if I wasn’t myself around you, all my friends. Some days are good, some days aren’t so good. I do my very best not to have it effect my students, my colleagues, and my friends.

This is just a random post, but I just want people to be comfortable with me regardless of my issues. I feel better now…I think.

For all you PS3 owners out there, you HAVE to play Metal Gear Solid 4. It’s probably one of the most epic and graphically beautiful games you will EVER play…besides Uncharted, of course. :)

It’s probably time to bring this back. As this used to be my vent about school, or life, but now that school is pretty much done…what do I have to write about?

This week has been full of emotions. Good and bad. I’m getting worried about myself. The happy Mark that used to be isn’t anymore. I’ve been eating not very much this week (my Uncle pointed that out)…and I have been overstressed, and needing to get out as much as possible due to this week. This was a huge transition week for me into my “new life.” Passing my comp exam was extremely good news in that I don’t have to pay tuition anymore to take the summer class. I’ll probably be back in Ithaca as early as in a few weeks or early October to take my final comp exam. I’m better now, though since I’m going to Flint for some West Coast swing tonight!

To those who have been there for me this week, and hung out with me, or have been kind to me this past week. I thank you. I can’t tell you half of what I’ve been through this week, the guilt I have been feeling…and the little things you did, and just you guys being nice to me, I truly appreciate it.